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-02:51 p.m. on Wednesday, February 27, 2002:
time keeps slipping out of my hands and spalting into millions of little drips, trying to confuse me one by one i shelter my eyes from these drops of time, smashing thoughts of the past striat into my head, but one thought, one said, " why look into the past when the present is to be greater!"....., I shook my head and said, " good thinking," and brushed the drips away.....
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-05:11 p.m. on Sunday, February 17, 2002:
no more brace face
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-10:48 p.m. on Monday, February 11, 2002:
today i went and saw a movie with my sister, her friend, and my mom, i had nothing better to do and well i guess i just went. not knowing what i was seeing, just kinda tagging along i ended up seeing a girly chickflick, in fact the intire theatre was filled and yet i was the only male guy there. as the movie started it started off with this hard core cool guy who only likes to have fun and only cares about him self , then he meets this girl whos the complete opposite and falls in love. the guy ditches his friends and is always with this girl, he begans to like everything that shelikes and they become more than friends. latter on they changed each others lives for the better and felt true, true love. as i sat and watch the movie i thought was going to be the worst movie of my life it made me think, i want that life, and im willing to work for it. but theres only one problem, i dont have a girl im intrested in or, in this town could actually make something out of me.(no offense).....well ...sigh.. i guess everyone was ment for someone else so i guess ill just have to sit back and wait my turn......sigh......
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-01:53 p.m. on Wednesday, January 30, 2002:
i need something to say...."#!@$@#@%*$*" ther.......all better....
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-12:35 a.m. on Tuesday, January 22, 2002:
i need something exciting or adventerous or just something to talk about that inst as lame as everything im saying now....sigh.... if only .....
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-12:33 a.m. on Tuesday, January 22, 2002:
ok, im up doing another prodject, but for some odd reason im not to tired?...???...
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-04:21 a.m. on Friday, January 18, 2002:
i hate freakin school, im just now going to bed and its 4:21 am and my foots asleep and i have to wake up for stupid school again tommarow...(or today but whatever..)
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-04:20 a.m. on Friday, January 18, 2002:
im so freakin tired.....sigh.....zzz.....
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-09:27 p.m. on Monday, January 14, 2002:
im tired.... tired of almost everthing...ZZZ..z.zZ...ZZ..
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-01:25 p.m. on Friday, January 11, 2002:
I wish i could speak in "Big" words.....o'well....
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-07:52 p.m. on Saturday, January 5, 2002:
spring break, summer time, where are you when i need you!
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-07:51 p.m. on Saturday, January 5, 2002:
dont let this sweet, sweet vacation end please! i beg you...
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-04:46 p.m. on Monday, December 31, 2001:
happy new year!!!(early)
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-04:40 p.m. on Monday, December 31, 2001:
this song makes me sad......but i like it.......
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-04:43 p.m. on Sunday, December 30, 2001:
damn... my past sucked, so why do i keep looking back... i guess so i learn from my mistakes....(..Sigh..)
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-12:24 a.m. on December 25, 2001:
Merry Christmas to all and to all a Good night!!!
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-01:57 p.m. on Wednesday, December 19, 2001:
Conquer the futur and you've already won the past...
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-01:45 p.m. on Tuesday, December 18, 2001:
Love is a battle field, but then again what do i know, im only a so called "kid"
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-01:17 p.m. on Friday, December 14, 2001:
Thats it. i give up. theres no point of trying anymore, im making no difference no matter what i do. i guess im just not fit enough for the whole love game....(..sigh..)...
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-01:31 p.m. on Thursday, December 13, 2001:
Our whole lives weve been trying to be older than we are, now that we are that old why dont we act our own age..
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-01:44 p.m. on Monday, December 10, 2001:
TodaYs the day i turn the big one six, yep 16 well, happy birthday to me!!!. i aslo got another silver meddle
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-01:38 p.m. on Thursday, November 29, 2001:
well every one, or if any one even reads this well, i won, (sigh) what a relief...
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-01:39 p.m. on Tuesday, November 27, 2001:
Todays the big day... i finally get to be the big wrestler on campus, who cares if its just a scrimage, were the beter patriots and were challenging some school from Manteca so the war is on, im a bit nervouse though so everyone wish me luck!!! ps, it starts a 6pm....C'ya
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-01:13 p.m. on Thursday, November 15, 2001:
right now disappointment tears my heart away as if a child tearing open a present and finding nothing inside. i feel like ive been turned down with out even asking. i also figured out something that ive never really been sure of, and thats what hurts me even more...
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-01:22 p.m. on Tuesday, November 13, 2001:
All good things, have endings.....
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-01:16 p.m. on Tuesday, November 13, 2001:
It all started on a dark gloomy, yet happy sort of sunny winter day in the middle of fall with the lawn fresh and green yet with the trees bare and bushy.
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-02:00 p.m. on Thursday, November 1, 2001:
Happy Halloween!!!
i know its a little late....
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-01:24 p.m. on Tuesday, October 23, 2001:
Fake words make fake people.....im not saying any names....
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-01:46 p.m. on Thursday, October 18, 2001:
It seems my life gets better and better, but as it gets better it gets weirder, yesterday me and some friends were doing this scavenger hunt thing were we had to videotape these 10 thing in a certain amount of time. while we were at savemart (doing something crazy...rather not put) and we got kicked out. that dosnt seem to happen everyday and when i got home my brothers built this hovercraf thing( which was awsome) and the these guys(maybe girls) threw this rug that was like dipped in gasoline and then lit on fire and threw it in the middle of the street...(People dont get dumber than that)so me and my bros and his friend went and put it out before the firetrucks got there. It was a pretty crazy night...plus this morning i found my wallet(yepee).
like i said weirder but better.....oh yea, SALEEMS BAND ROCKS!!!...rock on my friend ROCK ON...
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-01:52 p.m. on Wednesday, October 17, 2001:
Change is good...yes?
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-01:08 p.m. on Wednesday, October 17, 2001:
keep pushing me closer to the edge & ill throw you off first...
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-01:29 p.m. on Tuesday, October 16, 2001:
How do you expect to open new doors if your to afraid to walk up to them...
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-08:00 p.m. on Friday, October 5, 2001:
how do i get to heaven or hell?...........................
how do i get to heaven or hell, either or would be just fine.
what ever it takes to get me off of this earth is were i draw the line.
so what do i do to end it all, do i sit so still and wait.
or do i drownd myself in an ocean of red, or sufficate myself in a crate.
hell couldnt be worser then this world, its full of pain and hate.
cause when your dead you cant feel a thing,
like traiterism, haterism and fate.
in heaven i heard there is no fun,
its all just simple and mild.
you never have to think or touch or feel,
but im way to sneeky i can brake through steel.
so how do you get to heaven or hell.
walk backwards of a cliff.
and if im lucky, no one will notice and it will look like an accident.
by: cody christensen
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-10:22 p.m. on Thursday, October 4, 2001:
Pain is just a suspension of the moment of the situation...................Does this make since?... it does to me, i wrote it...
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-01:08 p.m. on Monday, October 1, 2001:
The last couple days have really been good to me. all phisically, mentaly, and spiritually. the other day i was ready to go to bed and my brother says,"wanna go see zulander with me?"....i said of course. as i was riding on the way there i said, man, i havnt felt this happy in a long time... it wasnt just the ride there and the movie that touched me it was the feelings from the last couple days. its like nothing goes wrong, and when something does go wrong it just gets replaced by something better. i even got to sleep in today....hurray!
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-01:06 p.m. on Monday, October 1, 2001:
today i faked sick because i had this big project thing that was due today and well, i didnt really finish, so..... is that wrong?
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-11:08 p.m. on Friday, September 14, 2001:
i know, i havnt wrote anything in a wile and im sorry. thats all i can say or do right now...i havnt been able to an internet access yet but finally , i m back....theres been a lot going on latly hasnt there. people dieing, people crying, buildings crashing, from planes with even more people abored... but the weird thing is that nobodys really noticeing whats really happining... the whole reason that the americans got into the world war 2 was because of the pearl harbor bombing, and yes we were pissed about that, very pissed. so we fought and fought and yet many more live were put to death. if what happened the other day was way bigger than the bombing of pearl harbor than just think whats going to happen next. this isnt going to be a little rifle war. this is going to be a war of who can blow this biggest amounts of damage out of each other. this is going to be a so called "push button war" were bombs that can effect entire states will go off. im now scared to live in california, because i feel were a pretty good target... this may sound a little weird but wake up.its true and slowly but surely it will all rub in. what happened in newyork was a huge deal. cause not of all the lives that were lost, but all the lives that will be lost in the next couple years..........sigh............
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-11:05 p.m. on Friday, September 14, 2001:
AS I SIT AND STARE OUT THE WINDOW LIFE SEEMS TO BE CHANGING BIT BY BIT, NOT KNOWING WERE TO START OR WERE TO LOOK FOR THE END. ITS ALL AS IF YOUVE BEEN SUCKED UP INTO SOME TYPE OF TRAP IN SOME OTHER TIME AND EVERYTHING IS DIFFERNT. AS I TRY TO FIGURE IT OUT I NOTICE THE TIME SITS STILL AS IF ITS NOT MOVING AT ALL AND EVERYTHING HAS FROZE, BUT AT OTHERS IT FEELS LIKE YOU FELL ASLEEP AND WOKE UP WAY UP THE LINE AND TIME JUST SEEMED TO FLY BYE FASTER THEN YOU COULD EVER NOTICE. DOES LIFE EVER MOVE AT A STEADY PASE?
DOES TIME EVEN REALLY MOVE?
DOES TIME EVEN REALLY EXIST OR IS IT JUST A WORD OF A DEFFINITION OF SOMETHING THAT SURROUNDS US DAY AND NIGHT TRYING TO DEFINE WHAT WERE REALLY MADE OF AND HEADING INTO. CAN YOU REALLY FEEL YOUR SELF AS YOU TOUCH OTHER OBJECTS OF ANYTHING, OR DO YOU REALLY JUST FEEL THE OBJECT YOU ARE TOUCHING? IS THERE REALLY A FUTUER TO THINGS OR DO THING JUST HAPPEN AS THEY DO, AS IF YOUR WHOLE LIFE IS JUST PLANNED OUT. IF THERE REALLY WAS A FUTER THAN HOW COME NO ONE FROM THE TIME AHEAD, WITH UNLIMITED TECHNOLOGY, SUCH AS TIME TRAVEL HAVE EVER COME TO OUR TIME? MAYBE THE FUTER IS REAL BUT IT ENDS NOT TO LONG FROM NOW. SO WHAT DO WE DO? JUST SIT AND WAIT FOR TIME TO RUN OUT OF PLACE. AWAY FROM EXISTENCE AS WE KNOW IT TODAY. MIGHT AS WELL MAKE SOMETHING OUT OF TIME. I FEEL TIME SHOULD BE CALLED LIFE. WE LIVE OUR LIVES AS IF THERES NO END, AND I STILL WONDER IF THERES REALLY A END TO LIFE AND TIME..........THIS IS JUST A LITTLE THOUGHT...
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-01:53 a.m. on Wednesday, August 29, 2001:
input is to output, as negative is to posotive. up is to down, as left is to right. happy is to sad, as laughing is to crying... ill speak to you, as you speak to me.. ill be meen to you, as your meen to me... ill laugh at you, as you once laughed at me... revenge can turn out for the worse, unless you get away clean...hehehe
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-01:51 a.m. on Wednesday, August 29, 2001:
Kanal surfing season is finnaly over.....boohoo!
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-12:58 a.m. on Monday, August 20, 2001:
hello there friends..... or just who ever is reading this at the moment, i havnt written in this journal thing for awile, not because i forgot about it, just because, i guess... well to catch up on the news i took my permit test again and PASSED! i was so happy! i only missed 2. i was pretty stoked. i drove the other night and being the good driver that i am i didnt crash.... another thing im stoked about. and thats about it exept my parents went out of town this weekend. it was pretty cool.OH YEAH, and my neighbor got back from austrilia and its good to see him... well ill wright more often for now on....
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-09:45 p.m. on Thursday, August 9, 2001:
hello there friends how are you all today... im having a smashing good time with my beautiful friend, tatiana. we are hanging out at her beautiful castle.... lody doty dah!!!
bye ill talk to ya all tommarow...(maybe tonight)...
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-01:49 p.m. on Tuesday, August 7, 2001:
today im a little disapointed, i failed my permit test. it was weird cause i knew all the answers but i just couldnt think. i could barely read the qustions...i missed 10 questions and you need to at least miss 8 to pass. now i have to rescedule my driving lessons and take the test again next thursday... im not that mad right now cause my brother kinda comforted me about it... when i told him i failed, instead of saying something like "you should of studied" or "maybe if you would of payed more attention in drivers ed" like my dad said, he just said "its alright, i failed my first time to", i dont know why that made me think differnt but it did so i feel not so much angry any more... thanks bro....
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-04:19 p.m. on Friday, August 3, 2001:
ok....i guess id better clear a bit of things up real quik before my life get pretty screwed cause half the world already thinks im cray....im not, and im not in a deep depression or anything...im not sad all that time and i dont need to talk to anyone....... usally when i put something like my last entry in its beacause im angry in that period of time..... dont feel sorry for me or get sad for me cause i dont need that... its sweet but anyone who reads this im sure knows me and know that im pretty happy all the time and in good spirit. the reason i type those things i dont know..it just realeeses my anger and what ever im feeling....for some guys they prefer to punch thing or even get revenge... thats not fom me.. i just type...i know it sounds lame but its what eases me... im sorry for causing trouble.... but its the only way i can get over something... i typed that last entry on my computer before i even put it on my page.....why i posted it, im not sure... i just did....well good bye..............................p.s.(im HAPPY!).................................................................p.p.s.i finally finished drivers ed! Yippee!.......
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-11:45 p.m. on Thursday, August 2, 2001:
im not crazy or suicidle.....i promise....
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-11:02 p.m. on Thursday, August 2, 2001:
nobody ever knows how i feel. they never take the time to figure how i feel or what im feeling.
this is how i feel, i feel sad, i feel sad alot..... i might have a problem..... i dont know what it is but it hurts so bad...... i never get to see those who actullay care about me or even ever think about me....im not asking people to think about me but to just actullay take time to look into whats going on in my life....you might even get to know me a bit better....that is if you even really care....to me it seems like no one does, but the weird thing is i also know that they do, i know some care alot.... i need help, but not the help like im crazy or gonna kill myself but the help of someone really close to me...someone who can help me get through whats going on.....not even my mom or dad can help though... they dont know me enough, and theres my problem, if my parents dont know me enough then no one does......so how am i supposed to get help.....im stranded on an island out in the middle of time waiting for time to start moving again..............
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